Wednesday, March 27, 2024

Good and Bad

I continue to have low periods and high periods. I am riding this wave and learning how to trust Jesus in such incredibly real ways. I've often said, "you can only sit with someone in the muck if you have been in the muck." So ... are we willing to be in the muck? Sometimes I say I am. Sometimes I say I can't.

In the meantime, we are slowly but surely ending the 2023-24 school year. Abigail is in 6th grade, Hannah 4th, and the boys 9th. Isaac turns 16 on May 7! We also got new baby chickens in this morning. Exciting!



Sunday, March 24, 2024

Happy Birthday Adrienne

Yesterday (March 23) was my sister-in-law, AD's birthday. This girl is one of the coolest people I know, and I love her to the moon and back. Happy day "A.D." -- you are one of the best parts of my life.
 

Newsies



The Production of “Newsies” had to be moved to a smaller theatre downtown. The big theatre had a break in its rigging. So now there are 6 shows with 300 people max instead of 700 on a much smaller stage. 

The show must go on! 

Isaac also got cast as a soldier in “Sound of Music.” He was competing for other parts and almost got one of them, but instead got a smaller role. I am so proud of his determination, passion, and hard work. 

Saturday, March 23, 2024

Time wasted is NOT wasted!

 


Time goes so fast


 

Days feel like a perfect length.
I don't need them any longer.
But for goodness sake,
Do the years seem way too short for my soul, corazón (my heart)…
way too short for my soul, corazón (my heart).
-Twenty One Pilots

I am going to try ...

 ... to write each day. To write what I am learning and thinking and growing in. 

Here's what I know. My body kind of "broke" emotionally. But I've realized why! I've realized that I taught myself to please PEOPLE instead of the Lord. It seems simple. But it's not quite that simple. But I am working through it and HEALING. And I will come out stronger in the end.

It's easy for people to say to me: "Just don't worry about others." But in my mind, it becomes SO much more. And I have a really challenging time with it. However, I am going to learn how to improve in this area. 

It's that simple. 

Ha!

Thank you to those of you who have checked on me. I'm not going anywhere and will be Blogging more regularly. (I hope.) 

Stay tuned for thoughts from Wendi :)

Tuesday, March 12, 2024

A good day

Thank you for all the love and encouragement. But more importantly, the prayers. I am learning a lot about my body and what I've put it through for 46 years. Eventually, the way you are thinking, won't work anymore, and I am having an opportunity to learn that. I plan to share some of that on my Blog. This life is HARD. We are sinners. This is a sinful world. We come into it with the pasts of our community and our family, and we have to navigate through that. My kryptonite has been people-pleasing. I've convinced myself that that works for me. But the thing is, it doesn't. It puts stress on the body that cannot be kept up with ... eventually. 

I'm hitting this spiritually. I'm hitting it medically. I'm hitting it emotionally. Therapy, medicine, prayer, the whole thing. I have had two good half days and today (Tuesday) has been overall good. Depression and anxiety is no joke. But I am determined to USE this for God's glory and to help others in this. Just like infertility. It will not define me. It will help make me into the woman God made me to be. 

To those of you out there struggling too, you are not alone. 

Also, I'll be talking more about a therapy I am doing. It is called EMDR therapy. Really fascinating stuff. Sounds really kooky, but it really, really isn't.